| - You Go To My Head While I was walking home from work I was think heavily like I usually do after work and I started thinking about love and God and I think love is when you know the worst thing about that person and IT'S OK. So my thoughts grew deeper and I begin to think, that's how God views us, its like He knows the worst things about us and IT'S OK. With that though its not like we do whatever we want to that person in the relationship but there is grace there and there is mercy too . So in short I know where I fall short in people's eyes and in God's eyes but you know IT'S OK
PS - I've acquired two new friends my dearly beloved fish named Loggins and Messina.
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| Today was a nice and peaceful day. I woke up kind of later than I usually do because of a restless night and I went downtown to schedule for my GED test which I'm terribly excited for by the way. After doing that I went to a small little coffee shop by myself and just sat watching the morning go by it was very nice then I walked to the library and read up on a really cool jazz musician named John Coltrane he composed some of the most beautiful music ever and towards the end of his life got really in touch with God and came out with an album called "A Love Supreme". But yeah I just sat back and read a book and just enjoyed this lovely foggy day i wish more days were like this. Truly I do. But everyone enjoy themselves and stay strong I'm out. |
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| - Here We Go Again Lamentations 3:48 Tears Stream From my eyes because of the destruction of my people. 49 My tears flow endlessly; they will not stop 50 untill the Lord looks down from heaven and seees. 51 My heart is breaking over the fate of all the women of Jerusalem.
I highlighted that last part of that section because I guess thats how i feel when I see certian things on the television. Like the other night I was watching t.v with my sister and I was so bothered with what was on during the commercial break of a cartoon that we both enjoy called "Avatar" on NICK. Well anyways to complete my story there were these things called "Bratz" they are toy dolls teaching our upcoming generations to be whores (bluntly speaking that is) with no self worth and no self respect now im not judging anybody but it seems to be the popular thing amongst 9 year old girls. And how do i know this? Because my little cousins are falling into this fad that seems to be sweeping up the interests of young girls and youing women as well. I feel like pleasures and entertainment are eating at the minds of the youth now don't get me wrong i am convinced that there are many that are focused on living life with both the pleasures and work. But anyways the televised life is not realistic at all and I think my generation and the upcoming generations need to realize that these broadcasted "reality" shows are far from the reality that alot of us know and experience from day to day it really upsets me so. I also must put out there that our society is dripping with sex and the devil l is using that in a mighty way in America. The world over rates it and we as christians under rate it which in my opinion is a worst thing to do because if christians aren't exposing this then kids are going to find out about it in the wong ways which would be a sad thing. gee im writing like a full blown article here well i think im going to close now i think that whoever reads this can come in touch with my sincerity towards this subject. i wish to say so much more but I think I would die typing.
FINAL THOUGHT: Think differently from the crowd don't be afraid to have your own opinion and go a different route than everyone else. Take every chance to be creative because we are acting like God the most when we are creating because He is the creator.
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| - Gone Work is tough sometimes and I get so tired my head hurts and i think Im going to go to bed now. |
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| - Ran For Miles
What can I say. Its a new year and a new chance to set things right in all the relationships that I have its sad when you know the answers to your struggles but you still trip up over them. I guess I must speak the truth in any situation even if it means risking all that I have. I don't want to be afraid anymore. It makes me lose track and makes me look ridiculous. Its time to step in what I know to be true. I'm not going to believe in lies any more about myself I desire freedom not to be stuck in the same mess for years and end up losing a very important part of my life. I don't know why I'm like this I guess its just the way i'm created and with that I thank God despite my upsets and disappointments. Pardon me. Who am I to fake it. No my life hasn't been perfect but I am thankful for everything I have and every single person I'm affiliated with no matter what goes on in the relationship. I think the theme for these last couple of days have been the idea of running. Running away from the complexity of relationships, running away from heartache, headache, & depression and then I thought to myself running can be good and is good for the heart only for a season but eventually you get tired and you just want to walk because your body needs to rest and inhale the good air around. I guess what I'm trying to say is that running away from relationships is running away from the life that God wants me to have. I have had many disappointments in life and I know I will have them in the future as well but what I think is going to make me a great person is that I still stand and strive to make a difference with my life despite heartaches and all that other bad stuff. I mean, we live in a broken world and things will never be perfect but I want to shake this world by having good relationships and pressing on from the rejections and loving the people who I want to slay at times. In conclusion I wish to simply walk and take a breath for a little while get my mind right and when I'm ready to run i will not run away but run towards the goals that God wants me to accomplish. I will not run confused and bitter sweating up rage but burning it off. Not carrying the baton of anger with me but the baton of peace patience and joy!!!!!! Its time for change.
The Roads Don't Love You |
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